I see. [Kaname takes a moment to process the explanation, eventually relaxing, but not quite as much as before. His reasoning makes sense given the differences in the societal scale of their respective homes. Still, something about the initial comparison rubs her the wrong way.]
It's not a walk in the park, you know. We work hard.
[ maybe it was his petty huff before he made the comparison? Maybe his long lasting bitterness towards his brothers for easily excelling had shone through his words. ]
I'm sorry...I didn't mean it like that.
[ don't get emotional over that now, too. You already embarrassed yourself earlier. ]
Bandou-- [The changes in his expression tell her she reacted a little too harshly, especially after his explanation. Her brow furrows, but she squeezes his hand again.]
You're putting a distance between us that doesn't need to be there. It sounded like you picture me above you in some way, and I don't like that. [A small sigh escapes her. Kaname knows she can do better, too.]
Before Walkure was formed, I tried my hand at a solo career. For four years I fought hard and tried anything I could to make my mark. Nothing worked, and I eventually gave up. I just happened to get another chance.
Popular or not, everyone has obstacles they have to face. I don't want you discounting anyone because of how you might perceive them, that includes yourself. That's what I didn't like.
[ He calms as she gives her explanation. It makes a lot of sense, and is honestly something he's needed to hear for a long time. ]
I've always been put up against those that were more talented than me. And expected to live up to their achievements, or even do better. And it's not like I didn't try either!
[ He takes a breath, not wanting to get riled up again after she did so well at calming him. ]
Hearing someone accept me either way feels nice, for once.
[ He'll move them around until he's able to get a good wrap of his arms around her. ]
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Is that really how you see me?
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...yes? That's a compliment though!
[ Guess he better explain himself! ]
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[ It's hard for him to contain his jealousy when he's around people who do better than him. But there's one big difference here... ]
It makes me feel good. Knowing I can catch your attention. And make you smile.
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It's not a walk in the park, you know. We work hard.
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Did I make it sound like you didn't?
[ maybe it was his petty huff before he made the comparison? Maybe his long lasting bitterness towards his brothers for easily excelling had shone through his words. ]
I'm sorry...I didn't mean it like that.
[ don't get emotional over that now, too. You already embarrassed yourself earlier. ]
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You're putting a distance between us that doesn't need to be there. It sounded like you picture me above you in some way, and I don't like that. [A small sigh escapes her. Kaname knows she can do better, too.]
Before Walkure was formed, I tried my hand at a solo career. For four years I fought hard and tried anything I could to make my mark. Nothing worked, and I eventually gave up. I just happened to get another chance.
Popular or not, everyone has obstacles they have to face. I don't want you discounting anyone because of how you might perceive them, that includes yourself. That's what I didn't like.
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I've always been put up against those that were more talented than me. And expected to live up to their achievements, or even do better. And it's not like I didn't try either!
[ He takes a breath, not wanting to get riled up again after she did so well at calming him. ]
Hearing someone accept me either way feels nice, for once.
[ He'll move them around until he's able to get a good wrap of his arms around her. ]
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A small chuckle escapes her as Kaname leans into the hug, glad she mostly got her feelings across.]
Just try not to give up so easily anymore. I think the ability to keep going is an admirable quality in someone, don't you?